Tuesday, May 18, 2010

there's no reason for any of this.


I can't imagine the worst that could happen.
I don't even know how to start anything.
I want to be who I once was.
I want to hear the things I felt,
and stop the confusion.
I keep telling myself I'm getting better, but I know it's just getting worse.
It took tonight to realize that you were my best...

When I can get myself free I become reminded.
This is the worst time to keep myself occupied.
I could hold onto this state to keep what I think should be kept.
My mind can't stop running and I can't get to sleep...

We're both getting worse.
I can't help but think I caused it.
I blame myself for everything.
That's just how this relationship works..

what can I do for you?
You can strike me with pain..
I make you feel nothing. I make you be nothing.
You life changed mine, and you changed your own.
I don't know where to go to become that again.
I need you to go back first.
I can't do anything without you.
I can't be me without you.
I'm sorry for these cliches.
I'm sorry for these thoughts.
I need to get out of your way.